Look at us! With our big name change and new design. If you have followed our website or YouTube Channel for long you will have noticed this is not the first name change we have been through. Some of you may be giving us the facepalm.
Well, It is hard picking out a name that will still hold some relevance as the years pass us by. AND has not been taken by someone else. Good names are scarce and it is frustrating to come up with a fantastic name only to learn it’s being used elsewhere. Anyway, I thought I would give you a bit of history about this blogging journey, our name changes, and why I chose to change it.
Some Background Details
When I was younger I loved to write short stories. I have also kept journals on and off since I was about 10. Back in the 90’s I wrote on a free blog platform. I won’t bore you with all the details but there were several life experiences that sucked the joy out of writing and it was discouraging that , when I was a youngin, I didn’t have anyone around me to encourage that talent. As an adult I was involved in two car accidents that have left their mark on me.
These experiences and others are reflected in my writings all these years later. I’ve noticed I say and write some things in a backwards kind of way and there is this fog within my mind. When the fog is thick my writing is laughable it’s so awful. I’m not much of a story-teller these days. I have my moments, but I prefer straight to the point truthful details. Truthfully, it’s very difficult for me to express into words what my inner personality wants to say. It’s extremely frustrating that my mind recognizes this but still can’t express it outwardly in the way I desire it. It’s left me with a quirky and a bit dry outward personality.
Journey Through My 40’s
Right around the time I turned forty I started to toy with the idea of blog writing. I waited about a year before deciding to go for it. I called it “Journey Through My Forties.” I liked it and figured it gave me a good time-frame of ten years to work with.
Soon I would be facing an empty nest, I was single and dating someone I had known since I was a teenager, living in a new area, and I loved the idea of writing about those experiences. I started on a free blogging site, writing in a journal style form. I was not too long into this journey when I discovered I was pregnant, With Twins! However, it was not meant to be and I lost them.
Blogging was put on hold.
What Do I Write Now?
When I decided I was ready to blog again, I scrapped everything. Something I now regret doing, but what is done, is done. I still wanted to write, but everything I put out felt forced, empty and meaningless. I shelved the whole idea for a few more months. In January of 2012 I started to try to write, but I still kept deleting everything I wrote. Then on February 14th I found out I was pregnant with my daughter, Lilyannah. I wanted to have a record of the pregnancy, but I was holding back. My deep fears and concerns kept me detached from reality and I basically lived in limbo for a while. I tentatively wrote out a few blurbs about being pregnant. However, it was not until I was almost through the second trimester that I started to let it really sink in.
It didn’t take long to discover writing was getting me nowhere. It took too long, gave me time to second guess myself and delete, delete, delete. Fortune crossed my path in the form of YouTube. I had been aware of YouTube but never really utilized it until I started to try to find information on what had changed since I last gave birth (In case any of you are wondering there is an eighteen year gap between my fourth and fifth child). I came across mommy vlogs and thought it was a wonderful way to record my journey. It has been a wonderful tool. In the beginning I would blurt out way more than necessary, upload it, and it was live as is. Once it was out there I was content to leave it. Luckily for all who chance upon my videos, I have picked up some editing skills.
The Online Journey Began. Again. 🙂
What Is Going On Here?
It was during those first few weeks of the third trimester that I started to have a few doubts about “Journey Through My Forties.” But, I couldn’t think of anything I really liked that I felt would work, grow with my family or wasn’t taken. Since getting pregnant, I stopped thinking about being a single adult with adult children and back to being a mama with children. For some reason I encompassed my adult children back into the fold. I think it was mainly because I did not want them to feel left out.
However, right around the time my daughter was eight months old I decided to shut down the blog. Started a new YouTube channel since, at the time, YouTube wasn’t allowing URL changes. I was in a hurry to change it all before I got many more followers. Once again, I deleted my blog and hid all the videos on the first YouTube channel, except two. An Overlay was placed on the remaining two videos with an explanation and asked everyone to join us at our new channel “In Full Bloom.”
In Full Bloom
From the start I was unsure of the name. I had wanted “Blooming Lilies” or “Where The Lilies Bloom” but the domains were taken. Someone is holding the domain “Blooming Lilies” for a ransom of $1895, that’s down from $3000 back in 2012, and a movie holds the last domain and most of the social media handles.
I promoted the new YouTube channel, ‘In Full Bloom’ and content everywhere I could but an odd thing happened. The old channel with just two public videos started receiving a bunch of traffic and people were subscribing at 3x’s the normal rate. To top it off the new name and content was flopping. It did not seem to have anything to do with the old name vs the new one, nonetheless, to this day I have no explanation for it.
I don’t remember now how long I tried to make ‘In Full Bloom’ work, but almost immediately began to brainstorm on something new. At the time most people in the blogging and vlogging world were saying the best way to brand yourself was to use your name. I was very reluctant to do that and had a list of reasons why I thought the way I did. On top of that, I very much wanted something that was personal, meaningful, family related and wouldn’t feel dated in a few years. I carried a notebook and pen with me everywhere and made sure it was at my bedside each night. During this time frame I was pushing for a private family blog that would connect my family and extended family members. This caused me to seriously consider the family name. So, Nuttah Awenasa, came into the running.
Nuttah Awenasa, did not exclude any of my children, It was the name that had the most meaning behind it and when I asked for opinions in the blogging and YouTube community it was the name most chosen. I see now that it mostly had to do with the running consensus that you need to be known by your name for branding purposes. I confess I gave in to the peer pressure.
Unfortunately, I still had a nagging voice saying it was not quite right. I worried people would have a hard time remembering it and people usually stare at me blankly when I say our name. I sat on using our name for almost a year, but a deadline for my domain name was closely approaching and I needed to pick something sooner rather than later. Nuttah Awenasa it was. It also gave us our tag line. My Heart My Home …To Yours.
Using the English Translations of the meanings of the two names and we have our logo tag, My Heart My Home …To Yours
What Happened? Where Did We Go?
Something unfortunate happened around the time the new name and domain came about. I got sick, very sick and lost my insurance around the same time. Things spiraled downward, a blog and YouTube took a backseat. There would be a few days or maybe a week where I felt I could dive back into it, but it didn’t last long enough to grow and make something of it. I posted here on the blog when I could, but our YouTube channel has not had any new uploads in over a year (at the time of writing this).
My insurance finally kicked back in, and I recently found a doctor that will listen to me and does not try to throw quick fixes at me or try to drug me with unnecessary medications. I want to fix the problems not cover them up with drugs.
One thing I have kept up with are our emails and comments. I try very hard to answer everyone and in a timely matter. That nagging voice in my head about Nuttah Awenasa started to show up in our followers communications. They would tell me they had a hard time remembering exactly what it was, they couldn’t spell it and they had a hard time pronouncing it. So, I made sure the blog, YouTube, the pronunciation was somewhere on all of our social media platforms, along with links that had audio on how to say it. This did not help the matter.
When I first decided that ‘Journey Through My 40’s’ was not going to work I loved the idea of incorporating Lily in some way, but everything I could come up with was already taken. Moreover, at the time, I had not moved on from the notion that I didn’t need to include my grown children into all of this. Again, I did not want them to feel excluded. It wasn’t until recently that I let myself, let go of most of those feelings. They are my family but they have their own households now.
In reality they play a small role in my blogging/vlogging. It took me awhile to come around and admit to myself, the blog and the YouTube channel are really about my youngest daughter and myself. It’s our journey. If I was to nitpick at it, it is still mostly my journey. Plus, I do all the writing, filming, editing, promoting and so on. Be that as it may, my baby is a large part of my life and I include her input as much as possible. That includes helping pick out our new name, colors, photos for banners and much more. She is a great little gal to bounce ideas off of.
It Is About Time!
So now we are finally to the current name. If you have made it this far you must be a true fan or curious by nature.
Blooming Lilies has been on my list since before the second name change, but it’s still taken. One of the reasons why I love it is that my youngest daughter’s and my name means Lily and Blooming indicates growing and growth to me. But, it also still felt like it excluded the rest of the family. About a year ago – My word! I do not understand why I need to maul names over for a year! – Anyway…
About a year ago, my oldest son was kind enough to let me think out loud with him. I asked him what he thought about “Bloomin’ Lilies.” He did something that has stuck with me all this time. He made a fist and rolled his arm upwards close to his body and said the name. The movement was meant to mimic a pirate, similar to saying, “Aaarrrr!”
Okay, I guess you had to be there, but in my mind it added a bit of adventure and defiance to the name. My adult kids like it, or do not really care as it turns out. My baby girl loves it and so do I. I conducted a small poll with our followers and it was a huge hit. I do worry a bit that people will forget to drop the ‘g,’ but this name feels better all around over anything else that has been on my list of possibilities. It’s also quietly been sitting there, this whole time, waiting for me to grab it up.
What do you think of the new name and the overall blog design? Let us know in the comments.
Would you like to know more about us and our blog?
I am going to be really upset with myself if I feel like I need to change names, AGAIN! Seriously, enough is enough.
I am in love with the new logo lilies. They definitely look better over the old ones.
Holy smokes! I cannot believe this post is over 2000 words.
I must be feeling better, I’ve gotten long winded.
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